Sometimes what we say isn't what we feel
People say you don't know what you've got until it's gone. Truth is, you knew what you had, you just never thought you'd lose it.

14.7.13

La vita è bella

Just finished watching 'life is beautiful' and it's an amazing Italian movie which my pri sch teacher showed us before. Starring a family of Jews that got sent into a nazi concentration camp, the father did everything to protect his child and his wife from getting shot/dying. He told his child that everything was a game, that all the kids were simply playing hide and seek to gain points, when actually everyone was sent to the gas chamber long ago. And just when the dad tried to find the wife over at their side to prevent her from getting killed, he was found. 
and shot. 
not once, but many times. 
 
sometimes i wonder who controls the life and death of everyone .. Is it God? Because right now, god, can you please stop taking away important people from my life? 

My maternal Grandma just got admitted into the hospital, and idk what & how to feel. I hope getting admitted into the hospital doesn't mean anything, because the last time my paternal grandpa got admitted, he never got out of it.