I don't think I've been coping well with school... but since when have I?????
sometimes I'm so bothered & troubled with stuff and I'm pissed off with everything about my life and sometimes I'm utterly happy and I wish that my life could stop at that particular moment.
Idk but I think whatever I'm going through now is making me older - not rly mentally but physically. I think I look like a 50 year old haggard now rather than a youthful 18 year old - not that my birthday is over but I think I'll be worse once I'm rly 18 since I'll be in the middle of A's which probably is the worst thing that can happen to me.
I mean I think it's a bother when I study more hours than I sleep
and I hate these days where I have to head home and face the table instead of facing the computer/my books or mere hanging out with friends. I'd trade 7cm of my height for that.
and sometimes the things or people that make you happy will eventually turn around and bite you ...
you get so affected you can't stop thinking about it. You get insecure and unhappy. You feel suicidal.
now now don't jump down the building it's not nice to die bloody.
