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7.6.16

So my knee kinda popped while i was dancing last thursday, and I'm not sure what happened. And going to the TCM doesn't help either because they dont tell me what exactly is wrong and they can only make predictions/assumptions. The physician told me 'lets hope nothing is broken'.
It has been ...4 days since thursday, and although it doesn't hurt to walk, and i can walk without a limp, it still kills me deep inside to know that there is a possibility i can't dance anymore.

I've danced for a good 16 years of my life, and i had so many plans for myself, joining the school's dance CCAs and choreographing and being the dance head and ... just doing so much more stuff and contributing towards my journey in dance. I wanted to continue open classes for as long as i could, but everything has just washed down the drain now and I'm not sure what I'm supposed to feel.

Sure, my injury may not be a big deal. It doesn't hurt, and i'm probably fine, i'm probably just having the jitters and panicking unnecessarily. But ... i dont know. i dont know. I'm speechless.

6.5.15

goodie goodie

at 2:04 AM

Just a short update bc its 1.50am and i napped 2.5 hrs today so i guess my blogger deserves some time on its own. For the past few months, Toby has been ranting on and on about how quiet & clean this public pool near his house was.. so i was rly imagining this secluded and clean public pool.. until this morning when i went to meet him in the morning for a swim and actually realised it was just the god damn pr sports recreation centre's swimming pool LMAO.

i was so disappointed?! Bc all along he could have just told me that it was the PR SPORTS CENTRE'S POOL LOL. and he also made me walk extra distance by alighting at a further bus stop ... hahahaha that ass.

after today, i realised i might have Thalassaphobia (not sure if this word really exists or if the website is just trying to scam me)(but basically its a fear of the ocean)

Basically after paying $2 each to enter the pool facilities, changing to my attire, incurring another 40 cents for the locker and also after spamming sun block all over my bare skin (lol in the end we went to the shady part anw HAHA), i swam one lap in the pool and decided not to swim anymore because the overall distance for half a lap was far too huge.

it was ok on my first half somehow because i was busy evading people coming my way (Trust toby to say it was a quiet pool LOL) but on my 2nd half i was already tired (LOL) but i couldn't stop because i was in the middle of the pool wtf. i tried to reach the floor with my legs but i couldn't and suddenly this 'Thalassophobia' just kicked in. like i suddenly realised how murky the pool was (toby claims its not tho), and i barely even cared about the people swimming beside me, because i suddenly and desperately wanted to get to the end of the pool. And when i mean desperate i mean like D E S P E R A T E because i started swimming literally as fast as i could (while calming myself down) because i suddenly felt like i was in the ocean (lmao mu rong) . like i was so god damn far away from the shore and i couldn't touch the pool floor and the water was murky and wtheck ... anw i broke into tears after toby told me to get out of the pool and we

actually

headed

for

lunch after my pathetic 1 lap and his 2 laps LOL.

at least now i know I'm only entertaining my condo's pool from now onwards bc overall distance is smaller and i CAN REACH THE POOL FLOOR even if I'm in the middle of the pool. god damn this thalassaphobia.

12.4.15

go to sleeeeeep

at 2:39 AM

Im quite determined to fill up this space now since i have less work shifts = more time to myself :) My planner cum diary has been s o empty because i don't even have time to write on it anyway. SO since i do have time now (even more after BTT test), i'll update this space more often and maybe start packing my life ... lol

meanwhile all you need to do is just not to get bored of ma face

lol my crazy red nails i look like i can kill

31 outing @ marina barrage hehe. met up with my ladies before we went tgth hehe omg gay any and gay sheryl with black hair.. looking so young and fresh ROFL

Meanwhile i look the same la so you don't need to spot any difference. Maybe the only difference is that i look older now cause i sleep at 2am cuz of work

thats sheryl's normal face btw without the smile

aww my cutie pie.

i mean the spoon.

SHIT berries haha BTW y'all should try my mixed berries smoothie i think mine is damn good btw lol can't stop repeating this

shit i do miss my class HAHA

ROFL M is not an easy character to make ok

my first home cooked meal with tobes hahaha

IM GNA START A PETITION FOR TOBY NOT TO CUT BACK THIS HAIRSTYLE

i miss the old hokkien mee t^t it sucks now don't eat hokkien mee from rmall

mui sounds disgusting lol but AW OCTOBY :)

toby i ken not pls don't cut back this hair

honestly this looks damn good ????

Ohhhhh hannnnn carrying a chem prelim paper book i think HAHAHHAHAHA

Went back NAFA to watch a performance with my 'seniors' HAHA. LOOK WHO'S STILL THE TALLEST.

Had merely ice cream with tobes after that :) and died because i lost my wallet = cry = cab home hahahaha

I WAS SO AFRAID THAT A LOAN SHARK would take my pink identification card and do shit idk man ..... i was honestly worried about pig heads hanging outside my house.

anw it was back at nafa -____- i dropped it under my seat but i really couldn't find it when i panicked and went back to check on that night itself. HAHA wtv don't ever lose your wallets its so troublesome

but anw throwback to the days whereby toby would wait hours for me /accompany me to study while he draws hehe love you :)

IMMA GO DRY MY HAIR AND SLEEP SOON nighties everybody